Sheltered Under His Wings

One day I was looking outside taking in God’s beauty when I spotted a bird sitting on my kids swing set. After a little while I noticed that he wasn’t flying away and that it looked injured. My heart went out to that little bird, but as I watched, another bird flew up next to it and began to feed it. Immediately it brought the verse to mind that God even sees the sparrow fall and watches over them. Then the verse goes on to say, “Fear not, for you are of more value than many sparrows” – Matt. 10:31.

This is such a precious image to me of how God looks after us. Sometimes it might seem like we are alone … but are we really?! What if we took those moments of feeling like we’re in the shadows, unseen, alone – and instead looked at it as we are in the shadow of the almighty … covered under His wings. Because really, that’s exactly what is happening. There are moments in our life/walk with Christ where God seems silent. This is where we need to get our binoculars out and adjust them so you can see more clearly with your spiritual eyes. God’s silence never means we are alone. It’s often times when God is about to blow your mind. Just keep those spiritual eyes wide open. Ask God to help you see clearly.

About a year ago, after several struggles that made us feel that the rug was being pulled out from underneath us, I began to doubt God’s goodness. Instead of inviting God into that space and allowing Him to heal me, I kept Him at arms length. I didn’t want Him to leave me, but I had the misconception that if God was close, than that would allow the enemy to strike again, and I didn’t have the strength for that. However, after one Sunday of singing the song Scars, I was reminded that I AM thankful for the emotional scars that I had because without them I wouldn’t have been able to witness the absolute miraculous things that God did for our family. My only regret is that I didn’t invite Jesus into that space of hurt sooner. I thought I needed to heal and then I would invite Him back close to my side. But, I know now that if I had invited God to sit with me in my healing, then He would still protect me. And really, He still was sitting with me!

There will be moments when you feel positively numb. You don’t know what to think or how to feel. As your friend, I want to tell you that it’s ok to feel this way. It’s ok to have that moment of anger, confusion, or questioning God. BUT, invite Him in to that space. Quiet your mind, and then simply say, “Jesus”. Sit in the shadows with your ultimate protector and healer. And then, watch God work.